(Yes, roller derby peeps, perfect timing for TGSS. Non-derby peeps, forgive my draft. Links and pics soon.)
This one comes with a content warning
re: invasive psychiatry
I’m experienced with dealing with trauma (17 years therapy), and taking about my progress. And I just met a new therapy named Dialectical Behaviour Therapy. It does as the name suggests (and will be expanded on lately).
So here’s my trauma-informed take on why I hate exercise:
During yoga, there were no opportunities for ‘fight’ or ‘flight’ and the low lighting and proximity to others prevented me from finding any perceived safety.
My favorite role on skates was outside pack referee, where super fast skating allowed me to use the ‘flight’ to work out the adrenalin. It was only when I moved to inside track roles (short bursts of skating and lots of standing still) that I really became uncomfortable.
And every second I spent in a gym, I was on high alert and ready to defend myself. Ditto, dog walking.
Though, that being said, the psyc at the hospital tells me that ECT is actually a very good full-body workout.
(Yes, I also use humour as a defense – no I’m not planning on needing ECT again any time soon.)